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(no subject) [Dec. 14th, 2004|09:53 pm]
I have a new LJ guys, because this one has gone dumb on me.. I'll still update it but if people want to add me as a friend, they may have to use the other one.. so it is blastkid12
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Festival of lights [Dec. 4th, 2004|12:49 pm]
[Feeling |accomplishedaccomplished]
[music to my ears |"You are my king" by Phillips Craig and Dean]

So, last night, my Church teen Choir, which I am in, went to the festival of lights to sing, and then have fun and hang out. It went great.. we drew a crowd even.. it was cool.. and the ensemble i was in, did pretty good. First thing me, michelle, melissa, and lori did was go get hot chocolate after we were done. Lori spilled her hot chocolate after she got it lol.. not all of it, but still. Then, I blew into the hot chocolate with a straw, and some definitely came out!! lol. My poor friend Rachel, spilled her hot chocolate on herself.. but appearently she just sat there, and said "Reminds me of chemistry class" because supposedly, someone spilled hot liquid on her on chemistry. haha. Liz, and Erin, and David, kept making me and lori run.. boo. lol.. it was fun though.. one time though right after we had prayed for something, melissa and michelle took off sprinting, and melissa almost knocked over a little girl!! lol.. then we were getting ready to leave, and Amanda threw powdered sugar left from a funnel cake, at someone, and got it in their mouth!! lol.. it was great.. then on the way back to the Church for the first, 15 minutes of the ride, I was seat hopping lol. Well, that's not all that happened, but it's a few highlights.. I might add more later, but right now, it's time to find something to eat, lol so ill ttyl!!
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(no subject) [Nov. 24th, 2004|08:59 pm]
[Feeling |thankfulthankful]
[music to my ears |"Trust In You" by Jeremy Camp]

In light of Thanksgiving, here's what I'm thankful for..

My friends-
Any from Church, School, or otherwise.. They are such a big part of my life.. I cant even put it into words.

My Family
All of them, they've been great the past years.

My teachers
All I've had in the past.. I've learned something from all of them.

The Nation I live in and The Soldiers which protect it
Obvious reasons.. It's so wonderful to have so many freedoms, and it's because of the soldiers those freedoms are protected.

My Church
I had wrong ideas about them.. but once I got past those, they all took me in with open arms, and they've been so wonderful throughout my grandma's death.. and the pastors are wonderful.

There is a song I can find for just about everything I go through, and that's wonderful. especially in the Christian music world.

Ever since the time where I didn't like life, I find it wonderful how beautiful life really is. It's such a precious gift, and you should live it for the right reasons, yet to the fullest. It's not something guaranteed.. Take it as it is.. You only get one shot.

Yup.. I'm thankful for my creator. He sent His son to die for me, and you and everyone. It's amazing how much He's touched my life. The people He has placed in my life. It's breath-taking really. I wouldn't be able to make it through the day without glorifying my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.. He is worthy of praise, and I honestly can't go through the day without thanking Him for something, and without Praying to Him. I love God. I'm in love with God.. and my life is truely dedicated to Him.

This is a very generalized thing, but you get the idea.. I hope
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(no subject) [Nov. 24th, 2004|05:35 am]
[Feeling |complacentcomplacent]
[music to my ears |"Grace" by Stuart Townend]

Last night was the praise service. Which the teen choir led. And I'm in teen choir.. I was slightly nervous, until I realized it was, in fact, going smoothly. We practiced so hard, and I personally thought it was going very well. And not only do I hope and pray we touched peoples' hearts there, but it also inspired me, and probably others in the choir. But as I posted, my grandma died, so it was awesome for me to be a part of something so inspirational. All the songs were so wonderful. Especially "I Still Believe" "By This They Will Know" (those two the entire choir sung.. also, I really liked Amanda's solo, it was called "Hold on to Jesus" Well anyway, I'm getting ready for school.. so i'll ttyl.
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(no subject) [Nov. 17th, 2004|10:04 pm]
[Feeling |draineddrained]
[music to my ears |Shine Jesus Shine]

Guys.. my grandma died, this morning.. at age 72. It wasn't at all expected, in fact, quite unexpected.. Pray or just keep the family in your prayers.. And my mom's uncle, and aunt, are probably going soon too.. Her aunt's cancer is spreading quickly including in her lungs.. And her Uncle's kidneys are failing.

And guys.. it's a wake up call.. As I learned with my uncle that I've been forgetting.. If you love or care about someone.. Let them know.. Treat them like you'll never see them or talk to them again.. Because you never know what will happen. I never got the chance to get my grandma what was going to be the last school picture of me she'd ever get.. And I will carry that through my life with me.. So don't give up on people, friends when you fight, family when you fight.. love them anyway.

And, Amber.. if you read this.. I'm sorry for lately.. Please be friends with me?

"I still Believe" by Jeremy Camp

Scattered words and empty thoughts
seem to pour from my heart
I've never felt so torn before
seems I don't know where to start
but it's now that I feel Your grace falls like rain
from every fingertip, washing away my pain

I still believe in Your faithfulness
I still believe in Your truth
I still believe in Your holy word
even when I don't see, I still believe

Though the questions still fog up my mind
with promises I still seem to bear
even when answers slowly unwind
it's my heart I see You prepare
but its now that I feel Your grace fall like rain
from every finger tip, washing away my pain


The only place I can go is into your arms
where I throw to you my feeble prayers
in brokeness I can see that this was your will for me
Help me to know Your near

That song was written when Jeremy Camp lost his wife.. it's about still believing in Christ and His word, in a bad situation.
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SUPERBOWL!!!! [Nov. 15th, 2004|08:56 pm]
[Feeling |bouncybouncy]
[music to my ears |In the Secret by Sonicflood]

YAY!! it's time to see my pics from Superbowl. You know, that fun all night thing I told you all about?? Here are my pics from it.. One isnt in here because I had already moved out of the pic lol... So, enjoy and love my friends.. cuz they're cool.. and keep in mind, that most were taken AFTER 2am. lol.. And LOVE STEWART!! he's awesome!! lol.

These first two are AJ This is AJ and Justin sleepin on the bus.. aww This is Allie This is Amanda This is Becca and Amanda This is becca This is kari beth This is CC This is also CC This be Erin This are some of liz's friends This is liz.. i snuck it!! This is a machine, after 4am This is me, wise guys.. after 4am, of course Also after 4am, this is Lori and Melissa This is Michelle This my dears, is a bottle of perfume, it was after 4am. These two are Rachel This is Ruth.. one of my favoritest Youth leaders.. she wasnt ready yet haha This little feller, is Stewart.. aint he cute?
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(no subject) [Nov. 15th, 2004|02:51 pm]
[Feeling |calmcalm]
[music to my ears |Be My Escape by relient K]

Yay.. so my Grandma, my mom's Uncle Elwin, and my mom's Aunt Louella are all in the hospital, and my friend hates me.. How wonderful life is. No wonder I feel Church and the Youth Group and whatnot is my only refuge.. IT IS!! It's my escape.. Where I know for a fact I'm loved, cared about, and anything else like that. I can be so stupid around my friends at Church, I can say anything to them, and they still love me.. I know, without a doubt, that if I need a hug, all I have to do is ask. That's a wonderful feeling. Yeah, time for a relient K song. It's "Be my Escape"

I've given up on giving up slowly
I'm blending in so you won't even know me
Apart from this whole world that shares my fate

And this one last bullet you mention
Is my one last shot at redemption
Cause I know to live you must give your life away

And I've been housing all this doubt
And insecurity
And I've been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
And I've been dying to get out
And that might be the death of me
And even though there's no way of knowing
Where to go
I promise I'm going

I got to get out of here
I'm stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I got to get out of here
And I'm beggin gyou
I'm begging you
I'm begging you to be my escape

I've given up on doing this alone now
Cause I've failed and I'm ready to be shown how
You've told me the way, and I'm trying to get there

And this life sentence that I'm serving
I admit, that I'm every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

I go to get out of here
Cause I'm afraid that this complacency is something I can't shake
I got to get out of here
And I'm begging you
I'm begging you
I'm begging you to be my escape

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I've made
And all I'm asking is for you to do what you can with me
But I can't ask you to give what you already gave

I fought you
For so long
I should have let you win
Oh, how we regret those things we do

And all I
Was trying
To do was save my own skin
Oh, but so were you
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(no subject) [Nov. 13th, 2004|10:55 pm]
[Feeling |sleepysleepy]
[music to my ears |Maintain Conciousness by relient k]

Time to tell you all about Superbowl.

6:00pm-went to the church, didn't leave until about 6:40ish, because they had to call another bus lol. On the way there, it was a lot of fun.. I sat by Liz thanks to Social Anxiety Disorder. We talked.. though I did most of it.. We got the cool bus, haha!!

9pm-1:00am-ish- Got there, it was very crowded and we got into our teams, and played the games, then Ric Garland talked to us for a while, then we ate pizza and pop, though all i had was a can of Pepsi. But it's all good.. then we went to the family fun center.

Bus ride- They were saying cheers they knew from camp and I was like "Wow, I feel like a loser, I dont know any of these" and Liz was like "Yep, that's why you're coming to Camp next year" Which I was already intending on going anyway.

1-3am- had a choice of roller skating, lazer tag, or playing games.. me and Ruth (A youth leader at Church) played games.. and she gave me all her tickets, plus i had my own, and i had 91 all together.. and what i wanted was 100 and since it took so long for Ruth to be able to ask if you could split between tickets and money, the lady let me have what i wanted for only 91 tickets.. it was grand. Also, I got pics there, and some were sneak attacks lol. I let Ruth, Rachel, and Lori read my poems.. they all said I was talented lol.. Just like everyone else who read them

Bus ride- Michelle, Lori, and Melissa were singin songs, and took requests lol

3-5am- Bowling. Wow.. I'm gonna shorten this part a lot.. Everyone was completely gone by this point. I tripped over a chair and could hardly walk straight. And I got the lowest score that I could, a 6, and I meant to.. lol I even put the ball in the gutter once and rolled it. I loved it. And then I swear, it was crazy because I couldn't comprehend anything, I think.

Bus ride home- I dosed off several times, but none lasted more than 5 mins lol.. Then after the last time, the sun started to rise, so I watched it. And Liz woke up.. And then for about the last 5-10 mins before we got back to Church, she slept on my shoulder.

Over all, it was wonderful. I can't wait til next year's Superbowl.. And if I can figure it out, once my pics are on my computer I'll try to put a link to them on here at least.
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(no subject) [Nov. 9th, 2004|08:46 pm]
[Feeling |dorkydorky]
[music to my ears |Maintain Conciousness by relient K]

Who I am Hates Who I've Been by relient K

I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the pacific
And you might think I'm losing my mind
But I will shy away from the specifics
Cause I don't want you to know where I am
Cause then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been
And this is no place to try to live my life

Stop right there
That's exactly where I lost it
See that line
Well, I never should have crossed it
Stop right there
Well I never should've said that
It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back

I'm sorry for the person I became
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to be sure
I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been

I talked to absolutely no one
Coudn't keep to myself enough
And the things bottled inside had finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'd soon blow up

And I heard the reverberating footsteps
Syncing up to the beating of my heart
And I was positive that unless
I got myself together I would watch me fall apart

And I can't let that happen again
Cause then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been
And this is no place to live my life

Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am will take the second chance you gave me
Who I am hates who I've been
Cause who I've been only ever made me

Read this one too, it's called "More Than Useless"

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Yet Another, it's "Which to Bury, Us or the Hatchet"

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I feel there will be many more posts like this one.
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(no subject) [Nov. 9th, 2004|06:12 am]
[Feeling |awakeawake]
[music to my ears |Mood Rings by relient K]

Ok, so.. my English exam is gonna be much different than that of the rest of the class. Because it's all over the book they're reading, and since it offended me due to my religion, Mr. Mullins let me read a different book. Meaning I can't take the same exam.. So I wonder what mine will be.. lol.

Thursday we're off school.. so I'll probably sleep, considering that Friday is Superbowl, and I'll be up all night.. I wake up at 4:40am, and Superbowl is from 9:00pm Friday night until at least 5am Saturday morning, because they plan on having us back to Church by 7am Saturday. Interesting isn't it? Yup. Anyway, I gotta go, gotta leave for school soon.. I'll ttyl.
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