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[Nov. 15th, 2004|02:51 pm]
Lauren
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[music to my ears |Be My Escape by relient K]

Yay.. so my Grandma, my mom's Uncle Elwin, and my mom's Aunt Louella are all in the hospital, and my friend hates me.. How wonderful life is. No wonder I feel Church and the Youth Group and whatnot is my only refuge.. IT IS!! It's my escape.. Where I know for a fact I'm loved, cared about, and anything else like that. I can be so stupid around my friends at Church, I can say anything to them, and they still love me.. I know, without a doubt, that if I need a hug, all I have to do is ask. That's a wonderful feeling. Yeah, time for a relient K song. It's "Be my Escape"

I've given up on giving up slowly
I'm blending in so you won't even know me
Apart from this whole world that shares my fate

And this one last bullet you mention
Is my one last shot at redemption
Cause I know to live you must give your life away

And I've been housing all this doubt
And insecurity
And I've been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
And I've been dying to get out
And that might be the death of me
And even though there's no way of knowing
Where to go
I promise I'm going

Because
I got to get out of here
I'm stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I got to get out of here
And I'm beggin gyou
I'm begging you
I'm begging you to be my escape

I've given up on doing this alone now
Cause I've failed and I'm ready to be shown how
You've told me the way, and I'm trying to get there

And this life sentence that I'm serving
I admit, that I'm every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

Beacause
I go to get out of here
Cause I'm afraid that this complacency is something I can't shake
I got to get out of here
And I'm begging you
I'm begging you
I'm begging you to be my escape

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I've made
And all I'm asking is for you to do what you can with me
But I can't ask you to give what you already gave

I fought you
For so long
I should have let you win
Oh, how we regret those things we do

And all I
Was trying
To do was save my own skin
Oh, but so were you
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