||[Nov. 17th, 2004|10:04 pm]
|[||music to my ears
|||||Shine Jesus Shine||]|
Guys.. my grandma died, this morning.. at age 72. It wasn't at all expected, in fact, quite unexpected.. Pray or just keep the family in your prayers.. And my mom's uncle, and aunt, are probably going soon too.. Her aunt's cancer is spreading quickly including in her lungs.. And her Uncle's kidneys are failing.
And guys.. it's a wake up call.. As I learned with my uncle that I've been forgetting.. If you love or care about someone.. Let them know.. Treat them like you'll never see them or talk to them again.. Because you never know what will happen. I never got the chance to get my grandma what was going to be the last school picture of me she'd ever get.. And I will carry that through my life with me.. So don't give up on people, friends when you fight, family when you fight.. love them anyway.
And, Amber.. if you read this.. I'm sorry for lately.. Please be friends with me?
"I still Believe" by Jeremy Camp
Scattered words and empty thoughts
seem to pour from my heart
I've never felt so torn before
seems I don't know where to start
but it's now that I feel Your grace falls like rain
from every fingertip, washing away my pain
I still believe in Your faithfulness
I still believe in Your truth
I still believe in Your holy word
even when I don't see, I still believe
Though the questions still fog up my mind
with promises I still seem to bear
even when answers slowly unwind
it's my heart I see You prepare
but its now that I feel Your grace fall like rain
from every finger tip, washing away my pain
The only place I can go is into your arms
where I throw to you my feeble prayers
in brokeness I can see that this was your will for me
Help me to know Your near
That song was written when Jeremy Camp lost his wife.. it's about still believing in Christ and His word, in a bad situation.